Living in the Moment

Lost in the cave of despair it is so easy lose sight of the light at the end of the tunnel. When I first learned this "secret" I fought it tooth and nail. "No one understands that I can't just pick myself up, brush myself off, and start all over again." Very true. We must first get to the point where our medication is in balance, and believe me, that can take a good long while. Then we have to give ourselves the opportunity to care enough to want to get better. It is comforting to feel like a "victim" and to be seen as such by our loved ones. We don't have to take any responsibility that way!

I woke up one morning not all that long ago, and realized that all the negative messages and beliefs about myself that I have carried for so long are in fact NOT ME. I am the quiet voice inside my being that directs me in healthy ways, that cares deeply about others, has dreams and ambitions and is very capable and strong. You have that voice too, and the "secret" is to start listening to that quiet voice. We all need to ask our brains questions such as: "to what purpose is this serving me", "when did I start to believe that I was incapable of taking control over my life (emotions)", "what proof do I have that I am weak." The amazing discovery that I found is that by asking questions of myself, I can't hide anymore from the strong, wonderful, loving woman that I am. Together she and I can take on our demons, and you have that ability too!

So be gentle with yourself, but use tough love and see what answers you come up with.